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When I know I'm going to quit by job soon, it becomes so much harder to focus. I keep thinking "well, not for long" or "well, it's not going to be my problem anyway" or "well, I should thoroughly document this so they can figure it out without me".

I'm starting to have a social life (again?) and seeing how I'm bad at some aspects of it. I knew I was bad, but now it's relevant. I guess it's mostly about small gifts. I never was good at them, never preparing them for my friends when I visited them, but I never cared so I never learned. But now I'm also hearing (and experiencing) how it's a more important social politeness thing in Japan than here. Of course, I will have the foreigner card, but I want to learn.

Oh, btw, my Japanese is absolutely not enough.

My fiction idea seems bad. There's too much stuff, there should be something smaller scale, and I don't have ideas. I guess you have to think of it in the background for it to work, and right now my background is too busy.

I'm going to do it. The "gemma rates images" project. On this very website. I could have started this evening, but I didn't. So I'll at least outline it.

1. A way to submit images. Probably a web form, maybe submitting a zip archive? Yeah, right now that seems easiest. With basic auth.
2. A proxy to my local PC where gemma runs. Maybe with tuna, maybe with ssh.
3. A script calling gemma 3 4b locally and asking it to rate images. At first - a random pair, saving all ratings. Then I can do more complex matchmaking like in the touhou project thing I did.

Like this it doesn't sound too hard. I even have the gemma model locally. It supports resolutions up to around 900x900, which is great.

I asked an LLM and I have a good outline for the project.

I actually do this a lot. I have several hobby projects where I asked an LLM, it got me some really good outline, and I just needed to do some software plumbing - connect the bits, set up the cron jobs or something. And I just didn't.

This time I'll do it. I announced it to a friend to make myself accountable, and I think I can do it. It's really not that much work, especially for a prototype level project.

One skill I lack that I want to acquire is organization. Both in terms of organizing people or things at work (lately I've been shown just how lacking I am there) and in terms of starting cool things with people and doing them. For example - when I was walking around Moscow with a foreigner recently I could feel I wan't the one taking initiative. Maybe that's fine and polite, but idk. In some groups, especially the JP learning ones, I had an idea to start a regular thing, but it was too much responsibility and I didn't start it.

The clubs are a good example. There are these outings - to a museum, to eat and then walk around, to karaoke. And these people organize them like it's second nature to them. My friend's birthday parties - too. But me. I recently realized I really liked Japanese karaoke and wanted to go there more, but I couldn't ask people to join me for my birthday or later. And now I'm wondering if I'll even be able to make a farewell party for Japan for myself like that. Or maybe I'll just learn what solo karaoke is once I'm in Japan.

(I heard about it from a Japanese guy recently - I read about it before but didn't know how common it was. Apparently, pretty common)