When I know I'm going to quit by job soon, it becomes so much harder to focus. I keep thinking "well, not for long" or "well, it's not going to be my problem anyway" or "well, I should thoroughly document this so they can figure it out without me".

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I'm starting to have a social life (again?) and seeing how I'm bad at some aspects of it. I knew I was bad, but now it's relevant. I guess it's mostly about small gifts. I never was good at them, never preparing them for my friends when I visited them, but I never cared so I never learned. But now I'm also hearing (and experiencing) how it's a more important social politeness thing in Japan than here. Of course, I will have the foreigner card, but I want to learn.

Oh, btw, my Japanese is absolutely not enough.

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My fiction idea seems bad. There's too much stuff, there should be something smaller scale, and I don't have ideas. I guess you have to think of it in the background for it to work, and right now my background is too busy.

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I'm going to do it. The "gemma rates images" project. On this very website. I could have started this evening, but I didn't. So I'll at least outline it.

1. A way to submit images. Probably a web form, maybe submitting a zip archive? Yeah, right now that seems easiest. With basic auth.

2. A proxy to my local PC where gemma runs. Maybe with tuna, maybe with ssh.

3. A script calling gemma 3 4b locally and asking it to rate images. At first - a random pair, saving all ratings. Then I can do more complex matchmaking like in the touhou project thing I did.

Like this it doesn't sound too hard. I even have the gemma model locally. It supports resolutions up to around 900x900, which is great.

I asked an LLM and I have a good outline for the project.

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I actually do this a lot. I have several hobby projects where I asked an LLM, it got me some really good outline, and I just needed to do some software plumbing - connect the bits, set up the cron jobs or something. And I just didn't.

This time I'll do it. I announced it to a friend to make myself accountable, and I think I can do it. It's really not that much work, especially for a prototype level project.

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One skill I lack that I want to acquire is organization. Both in terms of organizing people or things at work (lately I've been shown just how lacking I am there) and in terms of starting cool things with people and doing them. For example - when I was walking around Moscow with a foreigner recently I could feel I wan't the one taking initiative. Maybe that's fine and polite, but idk. In some groups, especially the JP learning ones, I had an idea to start a regular thing, but it was too much responsibility and I didn't start it.

The clubs are a good example. There are these outings - to a museum, to eat and then walk around, to karaoke. And these people organize them like it's second nature to them. My friend's birthday parties - too. But me. I recently realized I really liked Japanese karaoke and wanted to go there more, but I couldn't ask people to join me for my birthday or later. And now I'm wondering if I'll even be able to make a farewell party for Japan for myself like that. Or maybe I'll just learn what solo karaoke is once I'm in Japan.

(I heard about it from a Japanese guy recently - I read about it before but didn't know how common it was. Apparently, pretty common)